Current mood:

stressed

its funny how things go isnt it.

well my mom was at the hospital all day, i called at 7am and they were moving her to her own room. doing a bunch of tests. turns out shes got an irregular heartbeat due to a clogged artery due to her smoking and drinking blah blah blah. they wanted to keep her another night but she convinced them to let her go and i went and got her around 1:30 this afternoon. got up hella early this morning to take my car to get my tire back on it. took my sister to mcdonalds for breakfast and back to moms so she could get ready for school. took her to school. took myself to school. and so i got everything straightened out, mom was ok, everything was peachy, right? right...

so then miguel and his little brother dropped by and we went and picked up his baby sister from the babysitters for his mom. leaving turner, or wherever the fuck we were at, we got pulled over. he was going 35 in a school zone which is 20. it was just bad b/c for one, neither of us had even noticed we were in a school zone, and two, b/c neither of us even noticed the cop until he was right up on us flashing his lights and shit. it was one of those motorcycle cops. grr. so we got in trouble for speeding and b/c him and his brother didnt have their seat belts on. im shocked he didnt say anything about jacky not being in a car seat. but she is 2...are 2 year olds supposed to be in a car seat? i dont even know....but she had her seat belt on :D so i guess we got off fairly easily b/c he didnt give us a hard time, he just wrote the ticket and said to drive safely. thank god.

then pulling off the side of the road to keep on traveling home after getting pulled over, he ran over this fucking pipe that was sticking up out of the ground for no good apparent reason. it sounded like it really fucked his car up, but so far it seems like it didnt get damaged. but that was scary for the whole 15 seconds that it sounded like it was ripping thru the bottom of his car.

oh and did i mention that miguel also got laid off today? laid off meaning terminated, which also translates loosely to FIRED. for a stupid reason that he really didnt have all that much control over so its not his fault, i say this is a good thing, he can get a better job than that anyway. but hes got all kinds of things to pay for, so hes just a tad bit stressed out which isnt good for his ulcer. so i guess the wedding is postponed.

oh and ive been having hot flashes and other such problems this week. and i have a bad feeling. which does not put me in a happy mood at all. yes i have a bad feeling about this. i dont know how to describe it. but something isnt right. i know that much. i hope im just being paranoid. its just that theres one small detail that adds to my hysteria...so...ya. anywho, ill find out soon enough and i wont have to worry about it anymore. or...i will???

so what does my mom do the minute we step outside of the hospital? lights up a cigarette. good job mom. hope that works out for you.

so miguel thinks all this stuff has happened to him today b/c god is punishing him, and that he deserves it. after he got pulled over he just looked up and was like "what else god?" it was so cute. in a really sad way. i just had to raise an eyebrow at that. oh and then we were turning and we almost got murdered by an ambulance that had its lights and siren on, that once again, NIETHER OF US SAW COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lucky i saw it just in time and said stop, and for once he actually listened to me without asking me why first, which was shocking, so that was just lucky i guess. i am thinking maybe now would be a good time to start praying again or something, b/c things seem to be getting just a tad bit out of control. and i am scared. mildly. i dont know waht to do. i knew tho, that it was only a matter of time before it would start to get crazy like this. i saw it coming. me and him together...its just a combination of two dangerous elements. oh and he asked me if i would ever move to mexico b/c evidently his grandfather wants him to move there and take care of him until he dies. im just like a deer caught in the headlights. "mexico? like you mean....to live in mexico?" ya... "uhhhh....mexico? the country?" yes.... "to actually live there?" ..... "umm......">insert my nervous laughter here< ok ill tell him no.

i am going to go laugh it all off now. like how i laughed as i told people about my flat tire yesterday, and how i made jokes to my mom about her hospital stay, and how i just smiled sadly and nodded and acted disheartened when the hrm told me that they needed me back at the service desk and pharmacy would just have to find someone else. when in actuality i wanted to just throw things everywhere and run around the store screaming like a mad woman. no no, everything is fine. im jessica. im cool calm and collected. so really this whole post was just a joke. i dont want any of you to worry needlessly about me. this is just me doing waht i do best, worrying needlessly. somebody please just tell me im worried needlessly....